easter sunday

happy easter!
just spent a great afternoon with some new friends. had a really good time laughing, talking, and eating. it was so nice to just forget for awhile...
i have to admit, it was a little uncomfortable for me. i don't really enjoy social situations where i don't know anyone. don't get me wrong, i can be friendly and socialize! but i need to wait for that window of opportunity first. i need to be approached first. and that did happen this afternoon. i have a feeling i'm going to become good friends with a few of the people there. :)

but i'd be lying if i said i didn't feel a little bit sad. a little bit cheated. i yearn for the tradition. the stability. the security in knowing "this is what we do as a family". i want a family of my own so i can carry on the traditions that i no longer have in my extended family. who am i kidding? i just want a loving husband and my own little family. as much as i enjoy spending time with other people's families, i am painfully reminded of what i don't have. again.

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[3GirlKnight]

Have faith. You're learning how powerful a good marriage and strong family can be. It'll be all the sweeter when it comes.

[Dawn]

Me too. Me too...
::sigh::