Notes in the key of G

I'm really not

How incredibly ironic that after dinner I turned on my ipod (which I NEVER do) and put it on shuffle (which I NEVER do) and this is the song that came on. Someone must understand...

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
(I'm not okay)
To be a joking look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed

I'm okay
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)

But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)

ABDC

I haven't watched this show since Season 1 when the Jabbawockeez amazed me - and the rest of the world!

Yesterday the bestie asked if I wanted to go to a taping of the show next weekend. It would be cool but I haven't watched in so long... Ironically the show was on tonight when I got home from work. I started watching it and HOLY MOLY!! These little boys (yes, kids!) are phenominal! Just watch :)

 

Right?! Now are you just a little bit jealous that I get to see talent like that??

A Thousand Years

Dear Scott,

Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

Time stands still
beauty in all she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believe
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

Hosanna

life is finally taking a turn for the better.

sang my heart out to this song last night.

enjoy :)

 

It made me cry

I was relaxing this morning...which was awesome. It's a new thing I've been working on. And I mean that literally because I don't relax very often. ;)

So I was checking out some of my favorite blogs. And I came across a post by Elise where she posted about Les Miserables.

Can I just tell you how much I adore this play? Can I just tell you how much I sang this particular song? I actually recorded this song. And hearing this again? It created a stirring in me, in my heart. I sang all through junior high, high school, and college. 8 years of my life. It was only until I started teaching that I stopped singing. And I miss it incredibly. I feel like I need it back in my life again.

Any suggestions??

tnt 3

who knew i'd be able to pull this off 3 weeks in a row?!

"Your Love"
Midtown

Josie's on a vacation far away
Come around and talk it over
So many things that I wanna say
You know I like my girls a little bit older
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight

if you have read the blog in the last week you know exactly why i chose this song. for that line right there..."you know i like my girls a little bit older" if i got a dollar for every student i come in contact with that feels this way...well i'd be able to make bail. (joke!)

I ain't got many friends left to talk to
Nowhere to run when im in trouble
You know I'd do anything for you
Stay the night - but keep it under cover

my students do tug at my heart. i had a lengthy conversation today with one of the ap's about how i want to save all of my students. i want to take them home and feed them and make them do their homework. i want to protect them. from themselves. from their peers. (sometimes) from their parents. from the meanness of the world. so when they come to me i don't turn them away. yes, it's a burden on me. yes, it's the reason why i stay at work so late and work at home. but i can't turn them away. and in return, most would do anything for me. staying the night though? they wish.

I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight

Try to stop my hands from shakin'
Somethin' in my mind's not makin' sense
It's been awhile since we've been all alone
I can't hide the way I'm feelin'

and apparently some of them can't hide the way they're feeling! i know i never had the nerve to profess my feelings like that at their age! shoot, i don't know if i have the nerve to do it now! as long as i continue to tell myself that it is innocent, i don't lose as much sleep at night.

As you leave me please would you close the door
and don't forget what I told you
Just 'cause you're right - that don't mean I'm wrong
Another shoulder to cry upon

"just 'cause you're right that don't mean i'm wrong." i just love that line. so so so true.

I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
Yeah
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
I just wanna use your love tonight
I don't wanna lose your love tonight
lose your love
lose your love
lose your love

i talked to a teacher today about said student. she asked if i have ever had to discipline him. "no. he actually is a really really good kid in my class. i'm shocked that he's not in yours."
"how do you get him to respond to you like that?"
"honestly? he has a crush on me and wants me to be proud of him. but more than that, i believe in him and he knows it. and he doesn't want to disappoint me." he doesn't want to lose my love...

t(une) n t(uesday) 2

so i guess i would need to like actually write this on a tuesday...and make it consistent huh?

ok, mock me if you must, but i have recently completely fallen head-over-heels for this song. (and the boy behind the voice!) as in i have listened to it a good 20 times and have made it a ring tone on my phone. this isn't really my type of music but i'm loving it. i was introduced to this song by a student who made me a "love" cd. but that's a whole other post for another day.

"With You"
Chris Brown

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

just such a sweet beginning music-wise and his velvety smooth voice. swoon...

Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you're a stunner
Hot..little figure,
Yes, you're a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And..
Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

i'm pretty sure these lyrics are the whole reason why the kid put this song on the cd. imagine being a 16 yr old boy who has a crush on his science teacher. yup. you get it.

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

insert sweet dance moves by mr. brown. not only is it the cutest song but he also gets his groove on.

Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of their life who feel..
What I feel when I'm

With you [x5]
Girl..
With you [x5]

and as adorable as the kid is (and he is one of the super cute ones) he is just a kid. "if only he was 10 yrs older..." don't think i haven't thought that more than once.

Oh girl!
I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! Little shawty,
Say you care for me,
You know I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know that I won't lie,
You know that I would try,
To be your everything..yeah..

wouldn't it be great to have someone hear these verses and think of you? i mean, really. it's very flattering to have a few students who have crushes on me. really, it is. and the fact that one of them was brave enough to profess it to me in the form of a cd still amazes me. (i mean really! who makes their teacher a love cd!?!) but it would great to receive something like that from a guy who isn't going to get me arrested. ;)

'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

With you [x5]
Oh..
With you [x5]
Yeah Heh..

And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you're my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day

insert heart bubbles from said students eyes when looking at me here. because yes, he has since told me that i am the best part of his day. super flattering! do you have an older brother or cousin i could maybe date??

I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And there're hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
Woo Oh.. Yeah
They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight,
Hearts all over the world tonight

With you

tune in tuesday

i love me some music. i think it can totally create a mood. i will listen to certain play lists depending on how i'm feeling at that moment. pensive, happy, sad, angry, gonna kick some ass (yes, i have that play list too!).

so i thought i should share some of the songs that move me, whether good or bad, and why.

first off...
a little number by jack johnson
(who is quite cute, by the way)

"With My Own Two Hands"
(feat. Ben Harper)

I can change the world
With my own two hands
Make it a better place
With my own two hands
Make it a kinder place
With my own two hands
With my own
With my own two hands

started listening to this song as graduation from grad school approached. totally encompasses my thoughts on entering the teaching profession. i'm still young. i'm not jaded yet. i want to make an impression in my student's lives.

I can make peace on earth
With my own two hands
I can clean up the earth
With my own two hands
I can reach out to you
With my own two hands
With my own
With my own two hands

although i would love for my students to actually enjoy science, truth of the matter is most of them don't. however, the coolest comment i have ever gotten is, "dude, miss lubrano, i hate science. but i love this class!" and that's enough for me.

I'm going to make it a brighter place
With my own two hands
I'm going to make it a safer place
With my own two hands
I'm going to help the human race
With my own two hands
With my own
With my own two hands

i want to show kids that there is so much more than just the silly things they get caught up in. there is more out there than this room, this school, this town. i want to teach them to appreciate each other. their differences are what make them special and unique. (ok and we all have different dna!)

I can hold you
With my own two hands
I can comfort you
With my own two hands
But you've got to use
Use your own two hands
Use your own
Use your own two hands
With our own
With our own two hands
With my own
With my own two hands

and this is the verse that makes me cry. every. single. time. i know that for some of them i am the only smile they will see. i am the only person who will ask them how their day is going. i want to be there for them. i want them to lean on me. i want them to need me. but a good teacher teaches them to let go. and that's what i'm working on now. and now i have to go because i'm going to cry.

seriously, i just love music

love this song by lifehouse

a little piece of everything:

cuz you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything, everything
you're all i want
you're all i need
you're everything, everything

and how can i stand here with you
and not be moved by you
would you tell me how could it be
any better than this?

note to self: take it a day at a time and enjoy the ride

wow

as much as i love him


i think she is an amazing singer as well

and (i hate to say it) should be one of the final 2.

don't get me wrong...blake you are some sweet eye candy who can sing for me any time. but melinda, you should have been the next american idol.

no worries, i'll still buy your cd.
(who are we kidding? i'll probably get both of their cds...and maybe jordan too!)